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New Journal [24 Sep 2005|01:39am]
No longer "yeathatwasme"
Add "blairistotle"


AIM no longer "babiesofdementia"
Add "blairistotle"
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[23 Sep 2005|09:49am]
I strongly predict that i will fail college and work at McDonalds for the rest of my life if i continue to think incessantly about sex during lectures.
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[21 Sep 2005|05:31pm]
phone back.
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[20 Sep 2005|02:04pm]
It's going to be a lot harder to get in contact with you guys now.

My dad disconnected my cell phone.

So um? I hope i remember all of your voices.
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Not like you guys care [18 Sep 2005|08:08pm]
20 facts:

1. There's a really dumb part of me that "falls in love" with people, using the terms "fall in love" really loosely, and I've always been that way, and have just recently determined that I was lame and was not in love with anyone.

2. I've matured a lot in college, I think.

3. I don't really talk to anyone at school, and I really enjoy being a loner, it's almost like I joke with myself and enjoy alone time more than awkward "what do i say to them" time with people I don't know.

4. I'm planning on rushing next semester, I'm looking into Kappa Delta.

5. I really miss everyone from home, but more in a "i miss that time" than the actual people sometimes.

6. I will not come home again until october 16th.

7. I really enjoy all of my classes a lot, and because I'm a dork, this is a big deal to me.

8. This kind of goes along with being a cool loner, but I take trips by myself to fun places, like the other day I took a road trip to statesville because I had never been there, and then applied for a job.

9. The Red Hot Chili Peppers still and will always remain the best music ever, in my opinion.

10. Over the summer I had a huge thing for a 30 year old man, and pursued it, I really like older men for some reason.

11. French is my oxygen.

12. Rorie , Shvaugn Scurlock, Christine Louise Mabes,Kathryn Anne McDonnell are a part of my life indefinitely, whether they like it or not.

13. One time at Carowinds I got over the intercom at one of the stands and I said, "win a Spongebob" because that's what they told me to say, and someone said "SPONGEBOB IS GAY" so i yelled "HE'S A SPONGE AND THEREFORE ASEXUAL", I realize now that that moment may have been the highlight of my humor and that i was cool at 13.

14. I go to bed really early, I take a lot of naps, I get tired when i have only one thing to do, so I'm really old, at any given moment i could go to sleep--i never feel awake.

15. I like to read poetry and things, and that probably makes me emo or something, but i just really like it a lot, the art of mixing words in a way that makes people think without telling them the answer.

16. I'm so good at Wuzzles it's not even funny.

17. I knew Kurt Leuschner before he was really cool "I PLAY MUSIC" guy and we went to State Science fairs together, and he was my next door neighbor, and now it's really funny to see him play music because he was really dorky, but so was i, so you know.

18. my favorite word ever is: DIVA, or AVID DIVA, because if i could make up palindromes for my job i would definitely do it.

19. I have a friend here that I watch Date My Mom with. We've never spoken, but it's there's this understanding that we're both thinking the same thing and we both go down to the common area at the same time to see it.

20. I like daisies and you all should feel free to send them to:

Blair Richards
LRC BOX 8373
Hickory, NC 28603
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How do some people get into college? [14 Sep 2005|06:12pm]
I am surrounded by absolute morons.

The girls in the dorm RIGHT NEXT TO MINE decide that they are going to bake brownies in their microwave.

5 minutes later, the entire dorm has evacuated the building and the fire trucks are there.

1 day later, the hall smells like homeless man

Small fire, but the principle remains: you are beyond repair in your ignorance.
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[13 Sep 2005|10:20pm]

I'm an only child, I need help with this shit

What do I do if my room mate listens to music and sings every word to every CD in a loud awful singing voice when I am in the room.

What do I do if she takes up 95% of the space and I'm confined to my bed and under my bed (it's lofted)

What do I do if she's always, always in here? Literally, I'll go to aerobics at 5, come back, shower, dinner, club of some sort, and she's still here in the same position.

What do I do if my room mate buys a frog and it's against the rules?

What concerns me most is the first one because, how annoying is that? It really is grating, but it seems like it's a habit for her, so i don't want to blow up, but i would like a rational way to maybe ask her to stop or to maybe wear headphones?

Is all of this okay for me to think? I think I'm being fair and normal?

OCS? Help.
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[09 Sep 2005|03:25pm]
I'm coming home this weekend.

see me.
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[09 Sep 2005|01:45pm]
a poet's materialization at 1:58 am, or how i need to stop this and get over you 123FAST!! or i need better titling skills

and they will say that I was a foolish
who loved reveries and
ephemeral ghost like men
because YOU
whomever YOU are
cannot exist
with bones and teeth and human cells
because sundays were made for
front porches and sun tea
and rocking chair realizations
that you're always a finger touch away
from materialization
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[08 Sep 2005|11:06pm]

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[08 Sep 2005|07:23pm]
I should've gone to Middlebury Language Institute in Vermont. I might go there for the summer to finish my French major reqs. French at LR is nonexistent. Tant pis pour moi.

Today a man came into Coldstone while I was there. He and his wife come in and proceed to tell us that their daughter goes to Appalachian and they're trying to make their way there with their baby granddaughter in the backseat and that they've nearly run out of gas. So he asks us for money. I gave him 2 dollars. Why do I feel like I got suckered? Community Service, giving money to the poor, all of it seems selfish. Sure, I like to help out, but sometimes I feel like I do it so that I can pat myself on the back. You've done something good Blair, you're a good person. So I guess what I'm getting at is: If you do community service to feel good about yourself, or if you do it for other reasons but still end up feeling good about it, is it still noble/good/worthwhile?

Damn you Philip Blosser for making me think so much about something so seemingly trivial.

Roomie's parents are coming for Parent Weekend. Think Upper Middle Class 2.5 Children Flipped Hair Cookie Baking Mom and Office Working Dad. She also got holographic Dragon posters. Nice.

I also ventured into the library today. There is a nice Nikki Giovanni collection. I swear I was born a revolutionary black woman who knows the pain of my ancestors, it just doesn't show.

Follow the drinking gourd.
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[03 Sep 2005|01:40am]
sometimes you gotta just look at the trees with somebody.

i know it's dumb to think, but i don't think anyone has ever given me better advice, ever.

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gone till november [01 Sep 2005|01:58pm]
I went to a major meeting today and I'm tingly with excitement with all of the classes I get to take, the internships in D.C. to work with the mother fucking French Embassy, World Politics, Grad school paid for in Toulouse, France, holy shit. I'm finally realizing that the perks of going to a small liberal arts school open a ton of doors and offer a lot more personal attention. God. How can I be this fortunate? 2 weeks into school and so many opportunities and friendships have blossomed and I have so much gratitude that I can't hold it in sometimes.

I feel like I spent so much of high school hating the government and it's systems, but now I feel this overwhelming desire to do something to change part of what I hate. A year ago I would've scoffed at an International Relations major. I was strictly French/Teaching. I can't lead that life anymore when there's this insatiable desire to work in D.C., to make an impact in the world, to become an ambassador. I can't speak French at the level I would like to in teaching, but with something along the Intl. Relations line I CAN. And what it boils down to is how much French I can speak on a daily basis in a future career.

It's hard, because I'm so career/goal oriented here that I feel like I'm missing out on some friendship/dating opportunities, but I've realized I'm really a loner. Not a weird, fantasy reading loner, but I mean that in the sense that I don't need people to feel okay, in fact sometimes I can't have people around in order to feel okay.

I'm gonna be a loner diplomat. Love it.


Um, hello, my roommate listens to R.E.M. This is not the situation. The situation is that she sings it so loud that it permeates my headphones.
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[31 Aug 2005|11:03pm]
I think i'm taking this "get invovled" too far. I joined the Newman Club today. It's for Catholics. I'm not Catholic. Apparently we go on field trips to mass or something. I joined a Catholic club. WTF?
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[30 Aug 2005|11:39am]
Now I'm not coming home until the 16/17/18. Why does that seem so desperately far away?
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[28 Aug 2005|05:16pm]
I went up to Appalachian this weekend and had an absolute BALL. It was so much fun to see Rorie, Jeff, Andy, Adam, Patrick, Melissa, and everyone. I got a tattoo, and we watched Sin City, and I haven't had that much fun in too long. College is still incredible, and life is lookin' up.
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animeroommate [25 Aug 2005|09:38pm]
Man. I'm in this awkward stage at school where everything i say is followed by unbridled fear that it's going to be received in the wrong way. Kind of like, saying something like "When I was little I used to think it was Napolean Ice Cream instead of Neopolitan!" and thinking that it's going to be the coolest thing i've ever said and it really just turns out disasterous.

I've also discovered that I don't have a strong connection with the people that i hang out with, and we barely ever talk when we're together, but there's something about just being with someone that makes everything okay.

My roommate is also very strange, as most of you have heard, and right now she is talking to a very aggressive male on the phone who swears a lot, and I can hear every word he's saying because her volume on her phone is alien-like loud.

I received a package today but I can't pick it up until tomorrow at 10 am. If ever there was a Hell, it exists in the form of a blue slip that tells me I have something that I can't retrieve for 12 hours. M stomach hurts, and the noodles from spaghetti were overcooked, and I need some human contact that's not awkward/forced/void of meaning soon. App this weekend is a needed thing, I think. Also, if you're going to App and I don't get to see you, I will be slightly upset. Maybe.

I'm double majoring now in French and International Studies and I'm also a TA in French. Dang. Two days into the semester and I'm a TA. I'm also studying abroad next year and was told that if I keep my French up, that Grad. school would be paid for. I think coming here was a great idea. If I'm lacking at all in the friendship category, every bit of happy reinforcement I get in French makes up for it. Plus, I mean, yea, I need to make friends, but it's hard when I'm so focused on school.

I'm going to bed early tonight.

Roomie better fuckin' deal.
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[21 Aug 2005|11:08pm]
College is a blast so far, I've met a ton of great people, and a ton of not so great people. I have nothing interesting to say right now, just letting everyone know that i'm still alive. Are you guys still alive? Let me know.
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[18 Aug 2005|12:18am]
So recently I'd like to remember:
1 a.m. trips to Wilmington
Matt and his prank phone call skillz
MnSAG special time

So recently I'd like to thank:
Adam Mouser
Adam Griffin
Andy Baird
John David Ralls
Ashley Culpepper
Shelly Robinson
Griffin McGuirt
Eli Grimland
Randy White
Audrey Brewer
Benjamin Price
Cali Huffstickler
Sheena Scurlock
Sean Scurlock
Rorie Scurlock
Christine Mabes
Rita Mabes
Timothy Mabes
Daniel Sutton
Erin Coffin
Jacob Troutman
Jason Pearson
Derrick Goff
Jeff McElwee
Kathryn McDonnell
Lauren Garwood
Laura Armstrong
Matthew Alcala
Carolyn Sloan
Patrick Baine
Patrick Summers
Rachel Potter
Erin Reilly
Robert McDonnell
Steven Kirkpatrick
Talia Duniec
Taylor Meadows
Max Ballenger
Steve Honeycutt
Corey Tunstall
Leah Van Halsema
Andy Korzic
Samuel LeDuc
Dawn Jones
Michelle Thorne
Matthew Thorne
Denny Awesome

for making me who I am today, I've truely appreciated/appreciate all of you for everything. I said this to Kathryn and I will say it to all of you I just mentioned: My hope is that I have loved/love/will love all you of you enough so that in 50 years when you think of me you will still feel it.

I know that I will be meeting a ton of new people, and having so many great experiences, and that college will be a great way for me to grow, but it's hard to think about the future when everything you see is just a reminder of how much you are forced to leave behind in order to grow.

I know we're all going to be here next year and on breaks, but this is the end of an era, those car rides from Warehouse with the windows down and the music blaring can't be the same. We can't be the same. I think that's what hurts the most.


je peux pas respirer, vivre, ecrire sans vous.
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[12 Aug 2005|02:04pm]
Joyce Carol Oates is coming to LR on November 8?! Holy Crap. How've you guys been?
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